A letter:
Posted on | November 9, 2013 | 3 Comments
Sweet little soul,
Hi there, your momma here (or mommy, as your sister likes to call me). I've been meaning to give you some quality mom time, an afternoon of chatting about your name or long belly rubs in the bath. But I must apologize because I am so darn preoccupied these days. Between chasing your sister, cleaning the house, working, and time with your dad I am usually forgetful of you until you give me a little kick, which is becoming frequent and each time oh so lovely these days. Will a letter make up for my lack of pregnancy journal keeping like I did last time? I still love you, oh so much.
You're 17 weeks gestation. As I mentioned above, you've been giving me actual kicks for about a week, which is 3 weeks earlier than I remember feeling your sister. I've been feeling your flutters since the first trimester as well. I'm craving microbrew beer, oddly enough, which makes me wonder if you're a boy (a mini-brad, duh).
Speaking of your gender, we're going to wait to find out if you're a boy or a girl until your birthday! I was slightly apprehensive at first, but daddy was very sure that's what we'd do. I'm warming up to the idea and even a bit excited now.
I worry sometimes that I've been bringing too much negative energy in my life in the last couple of months. I have been prone to anxiety as of late, and am finding it a lot of work to keep some things in my life above water. The last thing I want is for this to affect you my dear child. Despite this, you must know that you are loved. That's all I want to fill you with.
Wait until you meet your sister - she kisses you good night already, and squeals at the sight of any baby these days. You couldn't have a better role model.
I think you're the final puzzle piece to this family, and I want you to know that I will work harder to stay positive and clear my mind of anxiety and guilt. Why in the world would I be anxious, when there's such a beautiful thing coming our way?
We can't wait to meet you,
Momma
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- April
- I am a RN & natural momma in the Pacific Northwest, married to a beautiful man I adore. Nature is my niche, animals get me. I read and I write, I hike and I love photography. Welcomed our daughter Hazel Annan earthside in February 2012 after three years of infertility & our second miracle daughter Juniper Louise in April 2014.
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November 10, 2013 at 6:57 AM
I am the queen of anxiety during pregnancy and worried (of course!) about how my anxiety while pregnant with Isla would affect her. She is really one of the happiest little people we've seen and is very good-natured, so rest assured that although everything we mamas do affects our developing babies, they also must be somewhat insulated from the ick.
November 10, 2013 at 4:47 PM
Beautiful!
November 11, 2013 at 7:30 AM
so sweet.
pregnancy with #2 is so different isn't it? You barely have time to pay attention to the little bean in your belly when there are so many other distractions. But loved they still are!