Serendipity

Posted on | March 20, 2015 | 1 Comment

This week has been a week of sickness. You know the type -- it's the beginning of spring and you think you're in the clear from all the late winter nastiness out there when BAM suddenly the kids are up crying and puking at night, of course hours after you've put freshly laundered sheets on the beds (seriously). Dad & I had to take a day off due to this double trouble and we decided yesterday a car nap was the best way to get actual long naps in them since they had both been sleeping and napping so poorly due to congestion. So we hopped in the car and headed upriver, giant coffees in hand.

We ended up at a spot that we discovered when we first explored Western Oregon looking to move here -- it's a place we camped at many times sans kids, staying up drinking local ale and listening to Death Cab for Cutie, a tarp over our campsite as a effort to stay dry (Oregon camping, duh). I remember sitting on this riverbank wishing for babies, as we had been trying to conceive to no avail for about two years at the time. I remember the lyrics 'I need you so much closer' I was listening to one day while watching B fish, and it was exactly how I felt about these future babies of mine. The ache was so raw, so consuming. Now here I am, 5 years later, with two sweet girls who watch their daddy fish from this same spot.

Some days it all feels so serendipitous. We were always where we needed to be but simply didn't see it. We discovered one another as man and wife longer than some get to have. We moved twice, went on some amazing adventures, & bought a home in the country we may not have found had our path been gone differently. It's hard to see those lovely consequences in the midst of infertility.

And guess what? Waking up to this river with our little backstory was just what the girls needed. Their runny noses and congestion were no match for the beautiful sounds of mother nature, the calm they truly needed. They played in the sand and hiked in the forest, giggling and singing like the happy souls they are. And I was left feeling whole, as if my life was leading up to this moment, middle of the night vomiting and all. Because life is what you make it. And mine, well it is simply beautiful.

Category: babywearing , Love , marriage , Motherhood , Nature , Oregon , sisters

5 Years!

Posted on | September 13, 2013 | 2 Comments

Today marks the anniversary of our mountain lake wedding five years ago! It's actually our first 'Friday the 13'th' anniversary since we chose the date. Fortunately we aren't too superstitious!

Today we went out for breakfast as a family, & planned on a short hike but the trail was closed. Instead we went home and I took a nap, shortly after my b went off to work. It wasn't a very eventful day. I found myself getting a bit bummed thinking of anniversarys past - coastal cabins, camping in yellowstone, celebrating with nice dinners, etc. But we're aching for money as of late so work mustn't be overlooked!

Not to mention we finally took the plunge and bought tickets to Italy for next month! We've been putting away a small amount from each paycheck for a few years now, and really wanted to go visit B's fam there while the weather is decent & before Hazel turns 2 (she's free now, duh!).

So I'll stop complaining now... :)

Ps: Thanks for all the congrats re my most recent post - it is indeed exciting, and we're cautiously optimistic. Next appointment is this coming week, hopefully we'll know more.

Category: anniversary , Love , marriage

Poetry Tuesday: Marriage

Posted on | February 12, 2013 | No Comments

My mother used to have a book of poems by Khalil Gibran that I would read through as a kid, and I remember loving the fact that each chapter had a topic such as 'love,' 'war,' 'children,' etc. I browsed the same book tonight and was a bit surprised that it interested me as a child, and that I could understand it as well. Props to my mother! The poem below resonated with me today. I hope you enjoy as well.

Marriage

Then Almitra spoke again and said, 'And what of Marriage, master?'

And he answered saying:

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.

You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.

Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.

But let there be spaces in your togetherness,

And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another but make not a bond of love:

Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.

Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.

Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.

Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,

Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.

For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.

And stand together, yet not too near together:

For the pillars of the temple stand apart,

And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

-Khalil Gibran

Category: marriage , poetry , Writing

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