My real star sign
Posted on | December 8, 2009 | 4 Comments
I was destined to be a gemini.
I have this little voice in my head telling me to write out my christmas cards. This silly voice thinks that straining my south paw will bring christmas cheer and perhaps convice myself that my family isn't light years away. The other voice, the practical one, argues who will notice if you forget this year? as I sip my coffee and plan my next pursuit. It's a waste of paper; that would be a very eco-unfriendly holiday, right?
The same voice wants to tell the girl at work who stroked my hair while stating "it's sort of thick and dry" that her head looks like a horse on a little childs body. She's so disproportionate and pre teen looking - yet I don't stroke her head while neighing like a horse. Unfortnately the nice twin wins over and I just smile and laugh while silently wondering why I don't like her.
I will continue to strain a smile through christmas music & tell the in laws how cute their children are decorating the tree. Because you see, no one cares when the childless couple decorates their tree. They just wonder when their dogs will eat it.
So here I am, the the taurus turned gemini, the self professed crazy woman.
(And to think, tomorrow I start my first round of clomid - gasp!)
(And to think, tomorrow I start my first round of clomid - gasp!)
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- April
- I am a RN & natural momma in the Pacific Northwest, married to a beautiful man I adore. Nature is my niche, animals get me. I read and I write, I hike and I love photography. Welcomed our daughter Hazel Annan earthside in February 2012 after three years of infertility & our second miracle daughter Juniper Louise in April 2014.
December 9, 2009 at 8:47 AM
Thanks for the comment on my blog! I felt the same way about the "At Your Cervix" blog. I've fought hard to get pregnant... you can bet that once I actually get pregnant I'll fight even harder if there's some sort of threat!
Good luck with the Clomid! It's not my favorite drug but it was spotty with me - 3 of the cycles were really emotional and the other 3 were completely normal! Hopefully you'll get the "normal" version!
December 9, 2009 at 7:06 PM
"yet I don't stroke her head while neighing like a horse"
this is perfect. what a freak she is for even stroking your hair. wtf?
What is clomid? we need to talk again soon probably :)
by the way, your Christmas tree is beautiful! did you see the pictures of ours on FB? I wish there was a way for you to come back for Christmas. It would probably make it all better :) I give you so much credit for even putting up a tree and wanting to celebrate. I just don't know if I could do it without family. I'm sure I would try but it must be hard. I wish you could be with yours. we miss you lots
December 10, 2009 at 5:14 AM
Good luck with the Clomid.. Warn your husband of possible moodyness!! I will be thinking of you and hoping that you have better results with it than I did.
Your tree is beautiful, childless or not. And let's hope that the dogs don't eat it. That would be one painful poop!
December 12, 2009 at 9:54 PM
Katie - it's a fertility drug, helps induce ovulation. From what I hear it can make you a little nutso, so we'll see.