Transatlanticism

Posted on | May 2, 2009 | No Comments

I'm officially 24 in Michigan, however remain 23 here in Oregon. Interesting. Currently sitting home on call feeling a bit blue tonight. I talked to an old friend yesterday & it has left me a bit nostalgic. I don't mean to leave sour posts such as this last one - those days are few and far between.

It's just. I'm struggling. We have been off birth control for a couple years, trying to conceive close to a year. I take care of myself, I am healthy. I see 14 year olds giving birth, alcoholics, meth addicts, prisoners. What gives? I do not mean to hurry this because I know someday I will meet my little one. I want to believe this.

And I think marriage has slapped me in the face at times. I don't want to be a routine to him, the alarm clock he groggily tends to. I love my husband, and I know he loves me. But I never want us to lose passion. A ridiculous goal, I know.

I need you so much closer.

Comments