Aimless
Posted on | February 18, 2010 | 4 Comments
What is it about reliving the past that is so exhilerating? Am I the only one that remembers smells and feelings of particular moments of my life, only to land back in reality confused as to how I got here? Is it my lovely days in Michigan (edit: the four nice months in Northern Michigan), or is it my current quest in unbelieveable Oregon? Sometimes I wonder which is really reality.
Okay, so whoever is reading this is probably unfriending me wondering what drug April is on. Here's my excuse - overworked and underpaid, just made an offer on a house, my crazy hippy family drama. It's just a weird week, all in all. Last night at work I checked a patients cervix and found a foot - needless to say we were in the OR in minutes despite it being 4 am with no doctor in house. It was empowering, in a sense. Later that morning I had a patient tell me she had just done jello shots (yes, that patient being a pregnant woman, my primary census). She was five centimeters dilated and perhaps that was her coping skill. How again did I get here? Ten years ago I envisioned myself working with animals. Not women like the photo above.
And yes, this house offer is a little cloud hovering. It has been 72 hours since the offer and B & I are on the edge of our seats. Waiting, & waiting.
But here's what I know: everything will and does happen for a reason. I am in this profession for a reason, and this house will go through if it is meant to be. My family is crazy for a reason (really?) and I am supposed to be out west.
Point of this post: life is weird.
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- April
- I am a RN & natural momma in the Pacific Northwest, married to a beautiful man I adore. Nature is my niche, animals get me. I read and I write, I hike and I love photography. Welcomed our daughter Hazel Annan earthside in February 2012 after three years of infertility & our second miracle daughter Juniper Louise in April 2014.
February 18, 2010 at 6:38 AM
Weird and most of the times totally unexpected. But good, anyway. ;)
February 18, 2010 at 9:11 AM
life is so weird. my motto seems to be 'people are crazy' because, well, people are! seriously. i have a feeling you know this just as well as i do.
and..good luck on the house!!!
and..yes, there is some method to all of this madness. i have no idea what method that is...but i know it's there. everything will work out for you guys. it's just always easier to know that in hindsight than foresight :)
hang in there!
xo, em
February 18, 2010 at 7:17 PM
hell no you are not the only one that remembers smells and feelings of particular moments in time! I often find myself daydreaming about the past because of smells or something someone said. it brings me back like it was yesterday. I can still feel the pain or joy from those moments too. I think that makes us special :)
ANYWAY, did you put an offer on the house you showed me? I love that house even from the pictures! You will have to let me know when you know.
and p.s. it looks like we will probably be coming out there at the end of June. dates are unclear but definitely around the dates you gave me :)
February 20, 2010 at 10:37 AM
People are crazy and weird, indeed. :)