Tabula Rasa

Posted on | January 27, 2010 | 3 Comments

The title of this post is latin for 'blank slate.'  I want to run down the streets bellowing this phrase while people lift an eyebrow in my direction, silently wondering where the crazy girl came from.  I'm starting a new chapter in my life and as you most definitely have noticed already, the new template only seemed fitting.  I may change the header photo (I've gone through half a dozen already) so tell me what you think.  C'mon, puuuhlease?  The current header was taken on the Oregon Coast at sunset in January.  The trees are peculiar & beautiful. 

Okay, back to my tabula rasa.  Lately I've been feeling this innate peace.  Through fall and early winter my mind was pure chaos, I was struggling beyond belief.  I think it was a conscious decision, this change of pace.  I've turned to mountain biking, jogging, and eating wiser; and my body is screaming "yes!"  I opened my eyes and saw what I have; this small but theoretical potential in life to change things, to help others. 

Here are things that have led to this self exploration:

• 'Food, Inc' - need I say more? It changed my life.
• The devastation in Haiti
• On that note, a possible trip to volunteer in Haiti with fellow nurses and midwives
• A  husband who writes love notes in my lunches
• Hiking, pure and simple
• Live music at a local hippy pub
• The realization that I will get pregnant when my child is ready to be conceived (crazy as it sounds)

I realize that I am this incessantly glass half empty person; that I will stumble back into the shadows on occasion.  But I will hope.  That's all people can do sometimes.

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